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Saturday, 24 October 2009

seventeen and invincible

1.
you know what your problem is?
for the first time in your life someone
actually gives a shit about you and you
dont know how to handle it

2.
the truth of the matter is if you have to stop
and ask yourself 'is this really worth it?'
it probably isn't

3.
here's the truth about the truth;
it hurts, so we lie

4.
sometimes we expect more from people
because we are willing to do so much for them

5.
I think the hardest part about this situation is that
neither of us knows whats going on. Neither of us knows
what the other is thinking and we're both trying to make
decisions based on information we dont know.

6.
Just because you feel nothing, when you dont know how
to feel, and you dont know how to cry, you'll find some
hope tonight

7.
So I'll walk the plank and jump with a smile,
if I'm going down, I'll do it with style
you wont hear me surrender

8.
There are things you dont want to happen but have to accept them;
there are things you dont want to know but have to learn them;
there are people you can't live without but you have to let go

9.
It's when you hold eye contact for that second too long
or maybe the way you laugh. It sets off a flash and our memories
take a picture of who were are at that point when we first know 'this is love'
And we clutch that picture to our hearts because we expect each other to always
be the people in that picture. But people change, and people aren't pictures.
You can either take a new picture or throw the old one away.

10.
I've seen love die way too many times when it deserves to be alive.

11.
All I can ask for after everything we've been through;
just one honest answer.
Has there every been one single moment when you thought
that just maybe you made a mistake walking away?

12.
i'd be lying if i told you losing you
was something i could handle.

13.
I'm trying to convince myself that you're not the one for me
but the more i think it the less i believe it & the more
i just want to be with you

14.
I'm out, I've done everything that I can do
I'm not going to chase you anymore,
so if you want me in your life
you'll find a way to put me there

15.
And suddenly things change
You dont expect them and time get's rough
Those things make you forget to breathe
Those things make you forget how to laugh

16.
Bottom line, even if you see them coming,
you're not ready for the big moments.
No one asks for their life to change, not really.
But it does, the big moments are gonna come.
You can't help that, It's what you do after that
counts, thats when you find out who you are.

17.
She's different from the rest of the girls,
she's not a fake person, she can always suggest good music
she'll over analyze everything you ever possibly say,
and honestly, she couldn't care less about what most people think.
she's beginning to learn she can do just fine on her own.

Seventeen quotes for seventeen years of my life that I've lived. I personally like each one of them just because they're a bit special to be right now =) and I'm finally beginning to be the person I was before him and learning to be truly happy and moving on is probably the best thing that has ever happened to me. People change, and change isn't always a bad thing, it can be a great thing, but most people think that change in a person is always bad. I remember always hearing "well shes changed... she's become a person she said she'd never become" so what? It's not your life, it's theirs and if that's what makes them happy at the time then let them be, they'll eventually find their way back to who they are and rediscover themselves. =)

question: what makes you truly happy?
answer: horseback riding. I love my horse with all my heart and if I ever lost him,
I really dont know what I would do, he's amazing and I would miss him forever.
He'll always be my boy

-lookingsoinnocent has never been so hard